It hurts. I know it will all be ok. I even know that God already has baby Curtis chosen for us and we won’t accidentally adopt the wrong baby, but it still hurts. We presented to our first expectant mother last week and just received the news that she chose another family for her child. The temptation to ask “why not us?” is strong but empty. The desire to carry on is stronger.
I’ve never been on such an emotional roller coaster as I have felt on this adoption journey. I had a “feeling” that this expectant mother was not going to choose us, but I wondered if it was simply my way of protecting my heart from being hurt. It didn’t work. As soon as the text came in saying she had chosen another family I felt crushed. A moment later, after updating my family that we would be moving on to present again my phone was flooded with encouragement and endless hearts. We are so blessed that we don’t have to go through this alone. One friend reminded me of this verse…
“But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.” Isaiah 40:31
Prayers that we will not grow weary would be very much appreciated. I love eagles! I see them everywhere I go and I pray often that God will help us to become the strong parents baby Curtis can grow and soar with.
Praying for you and Simon. Your Bible verse reminded me of this video and though it relates to the quarantine, it is what you are going through. Waiting on God's timing is often hard, but the wait is so worth it! https://youtu.be/gxbfyt8Rraw